'The pain I feel is too much to deal with'

Cape Town – The late award-winning rapper Rikhado “Ricky Rick” Makhado allegedly penned a suicide note dedicated to his wife and children before he allegedly ended his life.

According to Sunday World, an anonymous source who was close to the late rapper came forth and shared the contents of the alleged suicide note.

Ricky was announced dead by his family in a statement on Wednesday.

The “Sondela” hitmaker was only 34-years-old.

In the alleged suicide letter, he told his wife, Bianca Naaidoo, that the pain he felt was too much to deal with and the voices inside his head had never gone away.

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“Dear Bianca, this pain is too much. I don’t want you to blame yourself for my life being unbearable. This was the greatest period of my life. You gave me more love than I deserved. Please do not blame yourself. Live your life. Don’t hide the light you gave me every day.

“The pain I feel is too much to deal with. The voices in my head have never gone away. I wish I was stronger but I am not. Please forgive me. I love you so much. Be happy. Smile. Everything is okay now.”

He went on to address his sons, Maik and Jordan, individually.

“Follow your passions, my son. Your world is bigger than anything you could ever imagine. I love you,” he said to Maik.

“Jordan, the best thing that ever happened in my life. You taught me so much about myself. Thank you for being so good to me. Thank you for being such an inspiration to me. I love you. I’m sorry.”

“Keep each other close. Love each other. Please don’t blame yourself. I cannot take the pain. I love you,” he said to Jordan.

According to The Citizen, the late rapper’s funeral will take place at a private ceremony in Johannesburg on Tuesday, March 1 starting at 10:00.

‘The pain I feel is too much to deal with’ – Ricky Rick’s last words

Article written by Odwa Shumi

Article written by Odwa Shumi

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